I feel like I'm betraying the memory of Nathan Petrelli or something because, gosh darn it, I liked the two eps from this week. WTF, right?

( Spoilers and fairly incoherent rambling because I'm sick and it's hard to concentrate on the emotional neediness of Peter like this. )

Castiel in Fire by wuyemantou

I just love the colors and detail in this. It's got a very horrific feel to it, more gothic than most art. It's beautiful. If I could, I would get an actual painting of this and put it on my wall in a place of honor.

Facilis Descensus Averno by acerbus_instar

There isn't an actual name to the piece, but this seems apt. The textures and color on this really stand out. It's simple but pops. The wings, the neck, the wrists. All delicate and all done so well.

Drunken!Cas by sos_your_face

This was a peendance over at mishaland (if you comment, don't forget your CAPSLOCK), but it is too damn cute for words. We know angel!Castiel doesn't get drunk, but can you resist a Castiel in pink angel wings who dreams in child drawing bubbles, and crashes on Dean? I didn't think so.

Raphael's Revenge by reverie18

Another too-cute-for-words artwork. I want to take these little feisty angels home with me in my pocket! Not all humans are BFFs with their angels. And Lucifer has a white disco suit; Sam is not happy.

Merry Christmas by sajiwostudios

A bit of late Christmas cheer. Sam clues Cas into Dean's ideal gift, and another angel awaits Sam. Love the anime (manga?) style!

So, in becoming a full-fledged Dean/Castiel fan, I've noticed a few things. These are generalizations, I admit. There is an exception to every rule. I can say this because I am one. But, I have not seen a single person advocating both pairings the way I might. Hence, the poll.

Thing 1: Wincest fans do not like Dean/Cas. Hell, half the time, they don't even seem to like Castiel.

Thing 2: Dean/Cas fans do not like Wincest.

Me, I like both. I admit, I'm on a Dean/Cas kick, but I haven't wholly changed my allegiance (though it helps that all the eye fucking and sex/gay jokes transitioned from Sam to Castiel. What? I'm easy like that, apparently. Maybe it'll be Dean/Chuck next season...O___o).

But, I'm wondering where all the Dean/Cas lovers came from. If they all hate Wincest so much, what were they like BEFORE Castiel came along? I'm thinking the most logical explanation for those who hate Wincest but only now have an OTP is that they only joined fandom when Castiel came along. Am I right? Or has Dean/Cas wooed you away from another pairing?

Poll #1507456 Dean/Cas Vs Wincest
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 18

What was your OTP before Dean/Castiel?

Who is your ultimate SPN OTP?

Yes, I realize I gave you only one option. The point is to find those who are fervent Dean/Cas fans and pinpoint what they spent most of their time on. Me, I've read everything on that list (well, actually, I don't think I've ever read a Sam/John fic) and THEN some. But my main reading was Wincest. So think of what you mostly read (or didn't).

Please spread this around. I'd like more than 2 or 3 responses.

Best line I've ever heard:

"Jesus wasn't born to a virgin. She was fucked by some angel."--The Real World DC

Ok, blasphemy much? But damn, it was funny in its inappropriateness. Also, I bet you can all guess where my mind went...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! FIRST POST OF '10, HOLY CRAP.

Ok, I have a LOT of recs saved up from the past two months or so. So tonight we're starting the Dean/Castiel Recs: Part One: AU's. Read, enjoy, leave feedback!

Thursday's Child by strangeandcharm

If you're into D/C at all, you've probably seen or read this fic already. But it deserves to be repeated. You know how some fics within a fandom become your own personal canon? Or so popular, it's almost it's own 'verse for everyone? This is that one for me, at least. While I have had many fic I lovelovelove with this pairing, this is the one that was like a sucker punch, a good cry, and a deep longing for this fic to be canon. It's beautifully written, it hurts like hell, and it's more human than anything. And I don't just mean that because it takes place in 5x4 canon. In that sense, there are a few surprises. It'll also make you laugh (side cameos by our very own Iron Man and a few other celebs). It's long and plotty and sometimes you want to smack the boys upside the head, but it's perfect. If your heart isn't breaking for Castiel through most of this, you are colder than the Ice Queen.lol

Peanut-Butter Pumpkin Wedding Cake by sparseparsley

This fic, written for the deancastiel AU/Fusion Fic Challenge is a total comedy of errors. It's hilarious, a little angsty, and wonderful. As the reader you can't believe the two can be such idiots (and why don't they ever just ask?), but it makes for a delightful, sexy romp. If you like romantic comedies, this is your fix. And even if you don't, the characters are spot on and it's too funny to pass up.

Dean and Castiel "Snow White" Manip by hinky

It's rare for me to be really impressed by manips (well, aside from that fact that I can't do them at all myself), but this one is not only technically amazing, but it really captures a lovely feel. You can almost taste that dense moss and tree smell on your tongue. The light casts the perfect ambiance. And I like that there's no obnoxious glass case or 7 little men. Perfectly romantic.

Something Like A Broken Heart by rhymephile

Ok, I have a general distaste for anything cowboy, old west, and/or country. So it's awesome when something comes along that makes me forget all that and just enjoy the story. Dean is a Texas Ranger and Castiel is a cheap whore with a secret. There's some awesome appearances by our usual villains in this AU and as a whole, the fic works very well. Rhyme always pays attention to historical details, so you'll totally get lost (in a good way) in that.

Dream As If You'll Live Forever by commodoresexual

This fic just blew my mind. Dean's an ex-con who was put away for an act of stupid anger and Castiel is a mute hobo. But not everything is as it seems. There's so many wonderful cameos from all our favorite characters and a lot of surprising relationships get revealed. Castiel meanwhile is an enigma wrapped in mystery (wrapped in a taco shell?lol) who is our angel through and through. The author writes his actions, gestures, and looks so well, you can immediately picture Misha acting the story out. The backstories of both dean and Castiel are heartbreaking and believable. Seriously, you've got to read this.

( Side note: I am always developing new pet peeves. Here are today's. )

Sorry guys! Got family in town so I won't be active for a few days. Mwah!

(And in case you didn't notice, I got a new layout by toledan_night. I love me some broken, bitter Castiel. Check it out: mf_luder_xf)

Thanks for the birthday wishes, everyone! And a big thank you to elvisglasses5 for both the polar bear and the chocolate cupcake! Om, nom nom. I feel spoiled!!

♥ ♥ ♥

Have another gift. OMG, this is why I can't listen to podfic. I can read it, I can watch it, but listening to it makes it so awkward. LOL!! And the fact that it's actually Zach??!



It's all edited together, but it's genius. Wonder if Zach knows yet?

*can't stop giggling*

Ok, school is over finally. I was done a few days ago but then there was all the recuperating and seeing people off as they go away for a whole month. Holy crap. I'm sure it's going to go by pretty fast, though.

And in other news, it was only the other day I realized tomorrow was my birthday. I'll be 24. Crazy.

Anyway, I come back from my hiatus bearing gifts. I know no one watches Melrose Place on my flist, but I honestly enjoy the show and it brings a new crush to my list.

Shaun Sipos. 28. Adorable. Amazing spiky hair. Pretty lips. Bright blue eyes. Chiseled jaw. Does the brooding thing very well, but has a great smile. Plays an oddly likable character, David Breck who is a bit of a bad boy and a thief but still sweet and somewhat of a romantic.

Warning: image heavy.

( Enjoy the pretty. )

Too cute for words!

So dropping in to give a big thanks and lots of hugs to all those who sent me an LJ gift. That just made my day (my week, really!).

blaithacs
carpenyx
londonesque
bitter_crimson
lostandalone22
scarletfbl (PS: got you friended back finally! Sorry I'm not around ATM.)
kanld
and the anonymous sender.

I love you, flist, so much! ♥

And in a very short update, my life is WEIRD. I simply do not know what to make of it at times. I haven't decided if I'm going to share the story or not (I *can't* share it with RL friends), but just know, my life is like a curveball. lol

Still bogged down in homework, another week and then I can delve deep back into fandom. I have so many Dean/Cas fics bookmarked for after my last final! Tonight, though, it's an early bedtime.

1. Ok, since you all insisted I should still post art, this is the next batch I have collected.

2. Did you know "pegging" is not only sexual, but monetary? It is to tie a country's currency to another's. I could hardly get through the reading without giggling. WHY YES, I AM FIVE.

3. So, I am officially declaring this journal ON HIATUS. I'm doing this because I have 3 take-home exams, one lit review and two massive papers due in the next two weeks. I will most likely still be around commenting on your posts and in the comms, but I simply won't have time to create anything to post here. Since most TV is on break, too, I'd have little to ramble on about anyway. That being said, I have a half of a fic done and another started. So hopefully, once school ends, I will still have enough time to punch one out for you before Christmas. No promises, but here's to hoping. Please don't abandon me in the meantime.lol

[29] Battlestar Galactica
[27] Various
[4] Jewel Staite
[7] Dark Angel
[2] How I Met Your Mother
[3] Grey's Anatomy
[1] Law and Order: SVI
[10] The X-Files

Teasers:

( Art Overload )

Every time someone describes Dean and Cas' relationship (or lack thereof) as complicated I am reminded of those hilarious fics out there where Castiel learns the ~internetz~ and I just picture him listing his relationship status on Facebook as "it's complicated".

Title: Assassin
Artist: MF Luder
Pairing: Dean/Castiel
Rating: PG
Size: 1200x800 (wallpaper)
Artist's Note: 2 versions under cut. Couldn't resist the new John Mayer cd.

Castiel was always the dependable one in the garrison, the one most receptive to his superiors commands. That was before he met Dean. He should never have gotten involved, he should have left and let another angel take over Dean's guidance towards his destiny. But Dean wasn't what Castiel was expecting; he certainly didn't expect him to steal his heart.



( Full wallpapers under the cut )

[72] Dollhouse

Teaser:

( A Whole Lotta Dolls )

My Google-fu is failing me again. Anyone have large, preferably HQ, images of tough!Dean? I'm talking ones like from The End posing with a gun, etc. There's the one S1 promo with him and Sam holding a gun but I can't find it without all the promo info stamped across.

All help appreciated.

Two in like, two weeks. Amazing, huh?

Title: Lacrimosa
Author: MF Luder
Pairing: future!Dean/future!Castiel, Dean/future!Castiel referred to
Keywords: slash, angst
Warnings: drugs
Rating: R
Word Count: 1,552
Spoilers: 5x04, “The End”
Disclaimer: They belong to the CW, Kripke, and whoever produces the show.
Archive: My LJ, anywhere else, just let me know.
Summary: As an angel, he’d felt so much. Not physically. Feeling transcended the physical plane. Instead, he’d felt the souls and minds of all around him. He’d felt God’s creation pulse with life. He had felt the universe spin. Now, there was nothing.
Feedback: skin.walker2y5@gmail.com
Author's Notes: Companion to Hi, I'm Icarus; I'm Falling. It's highly recommended you read that one first. This was originally an outtake. Then it expanded and got the better of me. Lacrimosa is Latin for “weeping”. Part of a sequence in the Requiem mass. Translation at the end. Big fat thank you to my beta siberian_skys who is kind enough to put up with me, fix my commas, and listen to my whining.

( Lacrimosa )

I want to write fanfic SO bad after that episode. This weekend, right? Sometime over break I may go back to my Petrelli brothers. We'll see. I have three huge projects that need to be nearly done if not completely by the end of Thanksgiving break. But, I just...that's the original Heroes back. That's Nathan and Peter at their best.

I love you, Adrian Pasdar. You fuckin' knock it out of the park no matter what you do. My love for Nathan knows no bounds.



In conclusion...

BOYS ♥